It has been a rather rough year for me on so many levels.
Through choices and changes I have made, I have revealed my vulnerability and
placed myself in a situation I had promised myself never to repeat; that was 9
years ago I made that promise.
It has taken me the most of this year to realize certain
things; that I am a certain way and I know what I need to avoid or what sort of person I need
to remove myself from in order to thrive the way I am meant to be. So I have
made a decision this Yule to let go of everything and everyone that encumbers and
let myself live.
At the back of my mind I guess I have always known that not
everything is for everyone. It is OK to have dreams and desires and to want to
share them with someone, but it is VERY IMPORTANT that whoever you choose to
share that walk with wants to be on that path for themselves and not because of
you. It is therefore OK to let people go. It is stressful trying to make
someone else see your dreams or want your desires when they have absolutely no
interest in it. It creates room for disappointment and resentment (not worth
the trouble, at all!!)
I realize that I can still dream, still have a desire to
walk a certain path and still have a companion to hold my hand and walk with
me. Most importantly I have realized that the companion to walk those paths
with isn’t necessarily WHO I had hope to walk with. One can be open to the right
companion to manifest, or one can stifle one’s dreams by trying to force the
wrong companion to see/want the path. I chose the former.
It’s time to lay the foundation for positivity and growth
and I am laying mine now with the first day of Yule. It’s going to be a week of
meditation and silence for me until clarity is achieved and direction received.
And while I am at it, I would want to wish you all a Very Happy Yule.
